Fall came over night it seems. Yet the shift has been been happening dropping little hints of change the last few weeks. I have two extra quilts on my bed. The geese continue to honk high in the sky as they fly south early in the mornings. The cold dewy mornings clinging on a bit longer before warming enough in late afternoon to take off your sweater. The backseat of my car has an ever-growing collection of sweaters and jackets. Autumn is more than just an idea, it is here.
I love Fall. It is new beginnings. Time to use the growth of the spring and summer. It is a turning of the wheel in my life. Twenty-five years ago today I arrived at mother’s my doorstep at three o’clock in the morning. I was broken, hungry and ready to begin living relying on the wisdom inside of me instead of looking to drugs and alcohol to make feel me ok in life. Twenty-five years ago I made the first life affirming choice of many in my life. Twenty-five years ago I took the first step in self-responsibility that has led me on a wondrous journey of insight and possibility.
Today I am twenty-five years sober and I can hardly believe that the seventeen year old strung out broken girl I was has bloomed into to the confident capable strong women I am today. There are countless people who have guided, helped and made the path bearable but at the end of the day it is the choice I make everyday to affirm my life matters. The choice that affirms I belong here and keeps me striving and shining and yes, sober. So I thank every creature, person, universal energy and myself for helping me have this amazing life and the opportunity to live with an open heart.
My Inspiration to Open Your Heart is a bit different this week. One of the foundational tools for me to continue to open my heart and stay sober has been my morning pages. My journal is my everyday sacred space I have learned to hear myself, name my emotions and figure out what the hell is going on.
Over the last month I have been participating in the online course The Deepening with Catherine Just. One of the projects is take daily photographs of something in your life. I chose my daily journal. Over time the photographs became more and more abstract focusing on the line and marks of my words. These lines and marks are my foundation and entry point into my soul.
Today I share some of the photographs from this series. I share because I am scared to and I know this will help me open my heart. Which I hope inspires others to take the risk to live with an open heart.
May you trust your inner wisdom and make life affirming choices in the coming week. ~Kira